@hmm_cook my sensory system and mind are much more sensitive and open.The amount of output, signalling and stimuli neurotypical people seem to need to feel and experience themselves, each other and their environment are simply too much for my taste.
This is not my goal anymore. I was born in this world the way that I am, which means I have a right to be in this world the way that I am. My happy, flappy autistic self.